Amazon - The body speaks and I listen

7^th August 2013

Those of us that have physical injuries receive hands-on healing in addition to natural medicines. Several of us lay out on mattresses on the deck of the healer's hut with various ailments and body parts being rubbed and healed. I am waiting in line as I wish to heal my sacrum and back; damaged from a serious car accident 10 months ago. This morning I received a profound healing. Sesa is the name of the Maestro assigned to provide me with daily healing body work at 7am each morning. He has a kind, gentle, grandfather energy. He gives me a massage using a herb paste with an aroma of turmeric. His mapacho hands worked deeply into my left shoulder/scapula region to give my left side more mobility. Then I was asked to roll over. I had forgotten to wear a bra so my breasts were exposed. This made me surrender and be at peace with my nudity. I think about how natural it is to be nude and yet it is so foreign to many of us and how wonderful I felt to become more comfortable with my own nudity.

He massaged my tummy. There was a bubble or lump in there. I felt it pop as he pushed on it, with no pain I heard it move as if up through my body and out of my mouth. Tears of release came out of my eyes. I wept. In Shipibo, he explained to me that this healing, although in my belly, is healing for my back, for my sacrum. I understood this, although, I did not know the language he spoke. I felt like I was releasing sadness related to the experience of my Dad-leaving as a child, the lack of his presence and love and the loss felt from missing him terribly and the resulting anxiety and irritable bowel syndrome that developed from the perceived stress. I see now my injuries and illnesses are linked to the trauma of the events and of a life lesson that I had not yet learnt. It is all connected. The car accident injuries, the IBS/anxiety, it is all in my second chakra region, all in the same location. I see now that these illnesses were becoming worse the longer I maintained damaging relationships with key male authority figures that reflected the un-released relationship issues with my father. And now it has been released. My strength and ability it returning. That morning, I write a letter to my father letting him know that I release him from my belief that he is not the father I needed, and in doing so, I release myself.

I have learnt that the body is an indicator of emotional and spiritual mis-match. The body truly is a barometer of the soul. One must listen to what the body is saying, then react and change so as to relieve the dis-ease. Our dis-eases are connected to our beliefs. Throughout my childhood, I was constantly ill with Tonsillitis. In her book, You can Heal your Life by Louise Hay, she states that Tonsillitis represents ‘a strong belief that you cannot speak up for yourself and ask for your needs’.  I see that my recent car accident represented my inability to listen and re-act to the signs my body was giving (IBS/anxiety) to speak up for myself within a relationship that was a repeat along the similar strains as that with my father. It was a major wake-up event that propelled me out of the path I was on at the detriment of my health and was a major part of what propelled me to make this healing journey. For that, I am thankful.

Scenes from my childhood pre-separation.  

  
This night we have break from ceremony to rest and prepare for The Trilogy – 3 ceremonies in a row.